So, this is where I’m now:
1) I’m writing my DELTA module 3 and my body’s telling me that I’m really at the end of my rope. My face looks hideous, I’m eating sweets all the time and I could murder everybody around me… Nevertheless, I think it’s going fine. I sent the first draft to my tutor, I’m almost completely done with the courseplan, now I just have to collect and scan all the materials, and design the tests and the feedback form, and of course write the whole damn essay. Oh, I hate it so much….
2) I’m gonna apply for a Phd in London, at Roehampton University, where I already have my supervisor. I want to study bilingualism and psycholinguistics but I’m not sure about anything more specific about that. So as soon as I submit my module 3, I can finally start working on my research proposal - read a lot of articles and books and figure something out. I’m mostly interested in performance errors made by bilingual and multilingual people, so that’s where I’m at at the moment.
3) Actually, I don’t know why I’m doing this. Of course I know, why I’m doing it, to have some variety, some change, to stop this monotonous teaching life and start something more intellectually challenging but still, I just want to sit down for once and do nothing. Why am I always doing this to myself? As soon as one project is finished, I start a new one? Or worse, I start the next thing while I’m working on the previous one. And then I have so many thing over my head that I feel this relentless urge to do things all the time but I don’t have the motivation anymore to do anything at all. Ugghhhh…. I don’t know. I should really try to sit down and relax for a minute but when I do that, I feel that my life is running away, all the precious minutes are not used with a productive purpose in mind. It’s killing me that I can’t relax. And actually, while I’m saying this, I procrastinate a lot. So it’s not like I’m a crazy busy bee all the time - most of the time I’m just watching videos on youtube, looking at stupid things on 9gag, check out tumblr and stuff = nothing productive! But even then my mind hasn’t stopped working, it’s working full speed and while I’m watching a random youtube video I’m analyzing the way that person talks, what words they use, how the room looks in the background, whether I could use this video for a future lesson, and if yes, what kind of worksheet could I make for it, and while I’m at this wonderful thought, why not start doing the worksheet now?, but how could I do that, I have a fucking huge essay to write, oh but that can wait, I’ve already done quite a lot, this is much more interesting, but then I have to go with my mom to walk the dog, and then we need to go shopping, which is good because I love shopping but what about my worksheet ideas (it has to be a perfect worksheet!) and what about my essay? Omg, I haven’t done anything about my essay the whole weekend, but shopping is more interesting, oh and the sun just came out so I could go for a walk or sit outside and listen to music. Okay, just for 30 mintutes, no biggie, but it’s already 5 pm!
Uhhhhhh…. my life, I really don’t know how I’m getting any work done at all. Magic…
3) I’m going to the IH London Conference at the end of November, which will also be the 60th anniversary conference so I can expect a lot of big names and interesting lectures, and hopefully, lot of networking :))))
So that’s it for now. I had a little random stream of consciousness in the middle but I somehow got back on track :) So next up: submitting module 3, starting to read up on bilingual errors, and going to London! :D